chaos

hmm

well, i left the library
and went to the supermarket
did a lot of thinking while driving.

out of the chaos comes form
shapeless at first
and then in the shadow a form seeps out.


i had insight today

i show up for cp
and i say where the hell literally i mean
where the hell am i going with this
what do i get out of it what does it mean
what are the benefits of it and where am i going

but i show up and do it for and hour in the morning.

then i go to the library and write for an hour

it's the same thing
what the hell am i doing
where am i going
and what is coming out of all of this

it's almost the same

choas
no form
no meaning
just showing up

the aftermath is
fragments of life
insights

this morning it was an insight
i would like to write about
matthew peter james and john
the get along gang
i don't know
what do you think?