post traumatic knee surgery

all right
so I am going to try to get
back into writing.

haven't done it in a while
still want to write a book
not a long book
not a big book
not a wide book
not a skinny book

a story
with a beginning
a middle
and an end


the one thing i do seem to know is my job

i was figuring out my work plan today

i am having a retirement party june 7th 2014
which i am throwing and paying for myself
it will really be a party for me and john
celebrating all our years
and inviting all our friends

but i am not leaving work until june 2017
that's another seven years.
and that will make me 76
but hey i'm not telling anybody

any anyway june 7th is my birthday

i can't help it -
i am the only one making any money around
here at a job that i don't consider work
soooo - why should i leave
shudn't.

who knows- patterson says he wants to lay
off state workers in january in 2011
that would be interesting --
who knows
i am sure everyone would survive without me
(meaning the kids - they would survive -
it's just that i'd like to give them a push.)

but imagine waking up 1-1-11
and not having a job -
interesting --
i'll always make money
how do i know that
just do

tommy goes to college in august 2010
that leaves this house
which is pretty big
sort of physically empty

me and john.

john
he's bad with directions
he's okay for going to town and
monticello - but not for a long drive
where he has never been -- he's got no
common sense.

or maybe it's not common sense that is missing
i don't know enough about memory loss to
figure this one out.

and i haven't found the right doctor yet
to explain it to me

that is on my agenda
to find out more about that.

anyway what if i go to work in january
and they decided to get rid of all of the court
reporters.

welll--
i wouldn't have any extra money
to help everybody.
sooooo
they'd have to figure it out
which they would.

because if i dropped dead
then they would figure it out too

they all have brains
and i don't give them enough credit at surviving.

jenny is a survivor
she got a job working with fronca (stepmom) as a busgirl
in the restaurant. she made
$50 yesterday.

and she is going to the villa roma on mondy after school to check
on another job.

she's a good girl -
but i don't think she thinks she is physically beautiful
which of course she is.

that would make a good article
why do today's young girls not think they are beautiful
enough - when the reality is they are.

little tom is off to college in august

i called up grandpa russell my ex
to find out if he is coming up for the graduation.
he said, of course
so he is staying with me and john at my house

fronca, says, what does john say about that

what's there to say
he is booking with little tom in his room
got to buy new sheets and pillow cases and pillows.

it looks like it is going to rain out
talking to emily tomorrow
and going to jersey later on in the day
for maryknoll affiliates.

i was thinking about maryknoll the other day
i sat in on a planning committee a couple of
months ago

there are 10 of us there
spiritual egos

it's interesting to watch.

life is interesting.

i need time to work on my dictionary
because i think that will take me to
unexpected places

how - i don't know.
UN maybe.
the religious and their chapter meetings
where they discuss where their congreations
are going -
they are always on the cutting edge of what is
going on in the world

the world has gotten so small
so small
so small

that i think this machine of mine could play
an important part - translating the spoken word
as it is uttered.

utterly amazing.

it looks like it is going to pour
tom just left to play ball.

let's see if i had to leave my job in january

i wouldn't be able to pay my son's oil bill.

jaime would have to figure out how to survive

in fact he just called
he's working two days a week at construction
and the boss just told him he might be able to
give him some more hours - but not to get his
hopes up until he finds out which will be on
monday.

i am looking into the laundry business
coin machines.

if jaime got into that
there's other things he could do.

it is so black and dark out.
kyle 4
gabby 6

are here and they are counting the
pennies in the penny jar
and spong bob is playing on the tv

i gave murphy a shower with me.

well--
i gave him a shower first
and then i took a shower
and then i put him outside to dry
what a mutt
should have called him muggsy

it's a shame my sister can't talk to me

that's a lost relationship
she's never going to come around
and it is just a shame.

i have this transcript i am working on 500 pages
30 more pages to go.
i'll do 15 pages tonight
15 tomorrow
and then I'll start rereading it.

should be able to print it out by friday.

praise the lord
it is all about a right-of-way.

oh, well, --